Using frameworks from critical race theory, social movement theory, and community-based activism, this thesis explores the phenomena of white fragility, white guilt, and colorblind racial ideology and how they impact the ways predominantly whiteidentified social and environmental justice organizations approach, build, and maintain solidarity with communities of color in Santa Cruz County, California. A qualitative approach was employed to investigate the experiences of white-identified activists and how they attempt to engage in this constantly challenging process. Using twenty-two semi-structured interviews and eight group observations, I explored how white-identified individuals negotiate the transformation from 'moral passivity' to meaningful, personal relationships with people of color (POC). The research shows remarkable differences in responses by white-identified individuals in public space (implicit bias/overtly racialized comments) versus private space (self-reflection, drive toward self-education, willingness to forge authentic relationships with POC). The research also uncovers possible implications for how the intrapersonal dismantling of racialized thought systems on an individual basis may impact group coalition-building processes. More research is warranted, however, in the exploration of how these implications may translate to concrete strategies in the toolkits of predominantly white-identified environmental and social justice organizations. v ACKNLOWLEDGMENTS Without the help and support of the many individuals involved, this modest body of research would not have been possible. First, I would like to extend my gratitude to my life partner and spouse Gerald Francis Casel, who was, and is presently, an inspiration and a pillar of strength during a time when I thought I couldn't return to school or even think about completing a graduate program. Next, I want to express my deepest appreciation to my thesis chair, Dr. Jason Douglas, who encouraged me, through the many incarnations of thesis proposals, to take the ball on this project and run with it. The breadth and depth of his dedication to the most marginalized communities among us never cease to amaze me and keep me rooted to these ideals as my lodestar. Thanks also to Dr. Will Russell, not only for the mountainside philosophical discussions, but also for the patience and keen eye which were invaluable in the preening out of all the unnecessary material that eventually led me to this project. Thanks go as well to Dr. Natalie Boero, whose impeccable ability to ask the right questions and whose unparalleled skill in qualitative investigation dropped enough breadcrumbs my way to lead me out of the forest right into her office so I could complete my thesis committee. I am grateful and in awe of the many ways that each of you inspire your students. vi TABLE OF CONTENTS