Very little attention has been afforded to how male researchers actively position their gender in their studies, particularly in ethnographic research located within settings populated largely by women. In this article, I reflect on my own gender work during an ethnography of prenatal clinics and how this was articulated with other aspects of my researcher self. By reporting on the successes and failures of this performance, I argue that my gender constituted an essential element in the everyday negotiations between myself and female participants. In so doing, I suggest that reflexive commentaries of how researchers perform gender should not be viewed as a form of egotistic self-indulgence. Rather, they should be read as valuable statements for rendering the researcher visible and, here, for revealing how issues of doing gender play out during fieldwork.
KeywordsEmotions, ethnography, fieldwork, gender, hospital, identity, male researcher, masculinity, qualitative methods, reflexivityIn this article, I reflect on my experiences as a male researcher carrying out an ethnography in a setting occupied largely by women (prenatal clinics). Critical reflections and detailed confessions are a fairly common trait of the ethnographic craft; researchers have been rendered visible as a presence affecting all aspects of research, including constructing its narrative (Scott et al. 2012). Such accounts contain a wealth of information about -among other things -gaining access, collecting data, relationships, and exiting the field. Some of these arguments address gender reflexivity, a topic which has received renewed interest in sociology (but has a longer history in anthropology) -particularly from female academics researching primarily 'male' sites. For example, Poulton (2012) discusses her experiences of researching the hyper-masculine subculture of football hooliganism within the UK. She criticises the 'gender blindness' of male researchers doing similar studies who fail to consider the positionings, practices, and performances of the gendered self (2012, para. 1.1). In her study, Poulton describes 2 feeling obligated to prove she had 'balls' (para 7.2) to negotiate difficult situations and emotions. In describing her gender as a 'useful tool' (para 4.9), Poulton suggests that researchers should consider their gender more critically and work harder to disclose the complexities and messiness of qualitative work over offering purely sanitised accounts of methodological processes and practices.Despite such incitements, very few male researchers have written about their own research experiences. Limited to 'bar-room confessionals' or amusing anecdotes, such accounts -according to Back (1993: 215) -point to a need for a 'more sensitive appreciation of the politics of research' and responding positively to feminist critiques of methodological practice. There may be reasons for this absence other than Poulton's charge of gender blindness. Do some men not see such reflections as a priority or as a determinant in attaining ac...