In this paper, as a Pākehā[1]/non-Māori therapist, I reflect on my desire for integration between two diverse modalities: person-centred therapy and narrative therapy. Drawing on the dissonance experienced in a moment of a conversation where I responded solely with one modality, I question whether integration of diverse approaches is possible. I consider the extent to which I, as a therapist, am integrated. I conclude that theoretical consonance might not be possible, and an alternative goal might be integration in the therapist between their therapeutic actions and intent. Through actively reflecting on intentions beneath the surface of the work, for me, a muddy pond became clear.