Can 50 years of research, performed between ignorance and the wish to know, and executed between hope, despair, satisfaction and pain, be compressed into an abstract? What has been done in more than 50 years may be expressed in four words: it was worth it. If I had another life, I would do it again. In the beginning of my career, life was an enigma. It still is. Molecular details of the workings of life had been largely unknown when I began. Now, at the end, I still wish to know details: how is light, master of life, manipulated to either support life, when photosynthesis is possible, or to protect it when light endangers it. What is the molecular and the physical nature of the biological mechanisms which control both, energy conservation and energy dissipation, in photosynthesis?