“…International mobility requirements can be a strain on academic mothers (Thun, 2020). Yet, for me the biggest strain is not even how I find myself keeping up with the neoliberal expectations, taking personal responsibility to organize the competing demands (Huppatz et al, 2019;Rottenberg, 2018;Yoong, 2020), it is Conforming to and resisting imposed identities rather the fear of not becoming the academic I want to be. I realize that my momentum may have already passed, the "make it or break it" window of opportunity has closed.…”