Staging the Shadow: Writing, Academic Subjectivities, and Hidden Selves

Abstract

In this paper we explore our writing selves through the metaphors of concealment and display. We discovered the metaphoric possibilities opened up by Jung’s notions of persona and shadow and his emphasis on a rich psychic life that was animated by archetypes and symbolic meaning. This process helped us to glimpse alternative selves, that somehow live within us but are, like the shadow, neglected or pushed aside either due to institutional pressures to conceal or due to our own self-concept and our preferences for displaying certain identity types. Using poetic inquiry to access our unconscious feelings, we engaged in a process of writing that resulted in poetry and poetic vignettes. This type of arts-based practice helped us to disrupt the normative rationalist expectations surrounding academic work and intellectual production, and enabled us to create a space where agency and self-exploration were more accessible and transformative.

Puppets Know Best

“…We position ourselves alongside many other emerging and established academics, across a range of disciplines, who have stepped into these conversations, such as Caves (2014), Gabriel (2014;, and more recently Dedotsi and Panić (2020), Hoben et al (2019), and Sjøvoll et al (2020). More specifically, we contextualize our paper within conversations denouncing the pervasiveness of "the neoliberal university [which] requires high productivity in compressed time frames" (Mountz et al, 2015(Mountz et al, , p. 1236) and the perpetuation (Bottrell & Manathunga, 2019), if not aggravation, of a devastating "fear of failure" along with the emotional burden of "shame, anxiety, and frustration" (see Davies et al, 2021).…”