“…As her art therapist, I offered different art materials and interventions to actively search for her authentic spark, mainly when I felt emptiness and despair. However, I soon realized the conventional materials I brought, although of high quality [56], did not fit their purpose and created frustration and self-criticism instead of creativity and self-discovery [57]. Compared to the coloring pages and markers, watercolors were too uncontrollable and anxiety provoking for Leah, consistent with the theoretical literature regarding annihilation anxieties among those experiencing psychosis [58].…”