In this paper I make a case for history that is both deconstructive and creative. I begin from my position of “deconstructionism” and move towards queer engagement, which I argue, is a productive term that enables me to embrace deconstruction and subjective approaches to history making, without falling into the trap of writing a coherent “self ” into the text. I create an example of a fragmented swimming history to illustrate what queer engagement might look like in practice.