The experience of narrating the memory of a traumatic and transformative event becomes a meditation on how one person is launched into psychoanalysis, psychoanalytic training, and the psychoanalytic profession. Listening to imagery, paying attention to serendipity, honoring memory in its creative, emergent form, and retaining the ideology from a first career as an advocate for criminal justice are the themes that come to define the writer's analytic voice. Approaching the twenty-year anniversary of 9/ 11, she looks back at her last two decades of unfolding.