In this essay I focus on the earlier works of Judith Butler to discuss her understanding of gender theory and moreover do so in relation to people who are transgender. Transgender folk are important to Butler's early work but I contend that her allegorical use of them does not do justice to their precarious lives. I relate my discussion to existing work in organizational studies concerned both with Butler and trans folk and argue that Butler's concept of performativity should be (re)read alongside her other concerns with embodiment and universality to argue that, at least in relation to transgender folk, her work needs to be extended to consider issues of dysphoria in order to explain why some gender identities are refused and made abject. 'I, Robot?' Or how Transgender Subjects are Dehumanised. 2017 was not a good year to be transgender in the UK. The UK media printed a lot of transphobic articles and from October did so at the rate of at least 1 per day (Barker 2017). The long awaited revisions to the Gender Recognition Act was 'kicked in to the long grass' (Duffy 2017) meaning that transgender people still do not have the right to self-identification. From my personal perspective things did not seem to get any worse but equally no better than previous years. In 2017 one of my friends and her girlfriend were violently assaulted and hospitalised; another committed suicide. I have lost a friend to suicide every year since 2014; whilst internet sites like TDoR document the horrific extent of transphobic murders annually what tends to be glossed are the horrific number of suicides. I was on the receiving end of verbal abuse regularly and sometimes physical and sexual assault albeit nothing that required a hospital visit in 2017, unlike previous years. I lost count of the incidents of name calling, finger pointing, stupid comments early in the year as there were so many. But I get up and go out in public each day despite knowing that I may well be the victim of verbal abuse, or worse, that day. And I will repeat this every single day for the rest of my life. That's the thing you do to survive if you're transgender-you pretend. You pretend that being called a 'freak' for the 987th time no longer hurts, and you weren't fazed by the idiots who spat in your face, or by the women how grabbed your crotch 'to check'. You pretend you have no feelings and none of this hurts, ever. You pretend to be a robot just to survive. And if you cannot? Suicide? The suicide rate for trans people is shockingly high. I see my NHS gender consultant 4 times a year and each time I'm asked about suicidal ideation, sometimes I lie. I'm a non-binary trans person 4 years in to my NHS 'transition'-I, robot? In this essay I consider how the lives of many transgender folk are made unliveable in a heterosexual matrix that dehumanises non-conforming genders. It is particularly important that we consider this now as more and more people identify as transgender annually. This increase in numbers will result in more unliveable lives until we reconsider ...